I've put game development on hold for a while haven't I?
I have a very exciting more physical project going on that could revolutionize comfort in general in a ton of work environments as well as at home for certain types of individuals which ended up taking a bit higher priority.
I stepped out of game developing for a while to practice drawing (drawing in the name of creating art for my own games) sadly I only practiced for one month and this spiraled me into about half a year (if not more) of doing nothing.This happened because I was dead set on practicing art, but couldn't seem to bring myself to do it. Sorry (but this should be changing soon, I know I've said it many times again, hope that this time I am right, for my sake! pray for me if you're religious (any religion! I don't discriminate!) please! I need all the help I can get!)
And now I have decided to start an even third project which would be to recreate a lot (as in most of) Windows 7's environment within Linux (with a few improvements of course :D). This last one of course I do not plan to do on my own past a certain point, but if I succeed with that project, then I suspect I may need to oversee it in my free time as a sort of maintainer, but I probably will not be the only maintainer in the end (that is my hope anyways) so someone can take my place and eventually if I lose interest, the project would go on.
So currently what I am trying to do is:
Learn Qt (for the Windows 7 on Linux project)
Learn Blender (for 3D modeling which will result in 3D printing which will result in prototyping for a physical object I am designing, but this will also no doubt prove useful in game development later on.)
Learn Linux (Well I'm already technically an advanced linux user, but I took a lot of shortcuts to get here so I'm taking a linux course to fill me in on the areas I skipped since these are required if I am to be a successful Linux developer)
Learn 2D artwork (it will help directly in games since I will create quite a bit of 2D games (i hope) it can be used for concept and possibly cover art for some of my games, and it may end up being useful for texturing created 3D models, art is super useful this is why I started trying to learn it)
Learn (self)hypnosis (to reprogram myself to be more successful in all of the above) and master the art of lucid dreaming and vivid imagination (daydreaming) to better enjoy sleep and these times where I am free but have nothing to do (like when I'm sitting in a car waiting to reach a destination, what better to do than daydream in a vivid manner?)
As you may see above, I am very very apt at planning routes towards success in any and all goals I set for myself, but as you also may have noticed I am suspiciously incapable of following through with any of my plans. Why? this is a mystery but I think it is one I have solved.
I've placed the wall of text explaining it in my DA journals but in short: Because I did not live through my childhood and teenage years as is expected of modern humans, I never stood a chance against the temptations of modern entertainment (namely TV and Video Games) since people who pass through school normally even barely manage to choose school over that stuff. I basically have an addiction; an addiction to not working when I do not really have to, my problem here is that I can get away with doing nothing and as long as this is possible for me, every cell in my body will tell me to do so, but as soon as I give in to the temptation for just a second, the rest of my day is pretty much bound to it unless an unusual circumstance will pull me out of "entertainment mode"
And so my discovered way of fighting this unsuppressed human nature (which our education system was originally created to suppress, among other things of course) it is simple. Entertainment is the last thing I do every day (as in I will forbid myself from playing video games or watching movies and stuff like that throughout the entire day from the moment I wake up until at the very least after dinner) but I don't stop there, I create a schedule for the entire day all day every day to follow each day with a set amount of time to play games or watch movies, time which occurs only once the last remaining thing to do that day would be sleep.
It is an extreme measure, and hopefully I can ease up on it a bit in a few months or years, but I really see no other way. If I want to achieve my goals it would seem that I am forced to sacrifice my counter-productive way of life I now involuntarily have. Not a bad thing to sacrifice btw, I have been fighting against this for 5 years so, this is the closest I have ever come to a solution, not the first time that I say that either, but this time I know that I am right. So as I said before, pray for me, hope with me, trust in me and believe in me. Know that your thoughts of me actually can have an effect on me even if I am not directly aware of them or you live on the other side of the planet, it is a complicated world we live in but I am actually secretly beginning to understand how exactly that works; how it is possible, for someones thoughts of me from the other side of the globe to directly affect me.
You could put it in short as everything is directly connected, and what the majority of living creatures sees and knows becomes the reality for others as well whether they like it or not. It is because in this world, what is known is the truth, what is unknown is myth, not real. But in the same way of course one person can completely change how they perceive the world and their own life, involuntarily and voluntarily, that is how people change, and change can go on for a limitless amount in any direction. No doubt there are some people in this world who live in the same world as us and yet live in a world where they and other people are able to use magic. The possibilities are endless, but this may just sound like the ramblings of a madman to you of course :)
Just know that everything, all humans, all the rocks, all the trees, all the air, all the vaccum, all the stuff in the world, in the universe is directly connected, and this is how a small change on one side of the planet can end up completely changing what is on the other side.
In either case, I did not come here empty handed, I would not have started writing here if I had nothing to say about game devleopment.
I have a new idea, a better idea. Same world, same end goal, but bigger thinking, more sensible way of starting it. This idea is so good I am not ready to share it completely yet, but I'm scrapping all my previously planned projects in favor of this one.
This is because my previously planned projects were an underestimation of my capabilities and not sure to work out in the long run, this however is. I'm going to create a new kind of game and what I will share is that it will take place in the world I have already created (Amodos) and it will be a turn based strategy game and most likely 2D, at best 2.5D. I have not fully decided what it will be like yet, but the original thought was to create a Tower Defense RPG much like Defender's Quest: Valley of The Forgotten (Really fun game, you should play it) but I feel that what I am going to end up creating will be more in the spirit of Divinity: Dragon Commander. I have not truly decided at which time in the lore of my world this game will take place, but I know it's going to be so awesome that I will probably play through it myself, many times over! and it is the perfect way to start off my series and the perfect game to serve as an introduction to the lore of the world I am creating to further improve enjoyment of future entries.
Now much like the Divinity series I suspect that all the games I'm going to create in my series are going to be hugely different (i.e. one is a TBS genre, another is a Dungeon Crawler genre, a third is something like skyrim or witcher.. etc)
What I know is that this game, if I manage to correctly market it, it will be one of the most awesome indie games ever made for fans of RPGs and turn based strategy. But due to limited budget I may need to cut down on some of the things (like voice acting) but I might actually be able to kickstart this project to gain the money for such things.
I am so hyped for creating this game, and so much more hyped for playing it that I am itching to start developing it right at this moment. It's gonna be so cool, now my end goal for a game is very much the same as before, my dream game, and this is not it but... It is the best way in which to start off the series.
Project Unchained is still planned and will probably end up being my second game instead of the last in the series, if this game will be successful and Unchained will also be successful as I am hoping, the third entry will go fully 3D instead of 2D creating the ultimate 3D RPG game.
This is my plan now.
Now the golden question is... will I create my own game engine? (this will take a lot of time) or will I use an existing one?
This will actually have to be decided in a later point of design, but I can't wait. I am now going to have to go to sleep, but due to my excitment and sheer will of completing this project I will start my "battle plan" against myself sooner than I otherwise would have. I will pseudo start it tomorrow (by pseudo start I mean that I will be doing it but I will not be following a schedule like planned, I will just work and work and work on specific things until I decide it is ok for me to take the rest of the day off, but the real fun starts when I manage to fix my sleeping cycle, which dislocating my shoulder managed to fuck up again (I would have started this program the day after that night my shoulder got dislocated if it wasn't for well.. the debilitating effects it has)
At least now we know the biggest failure of my entire life. I managed to dislocate my shoulder while playing a video game on the PC sitting comfortably in my chair :(
